Man things have been crazy wierd lately!! My brother finally left today. Thank goodness cause that was getting out of control. My mom's foot is still broken and so she has just been laying around. It is wierd to have her home so much. I'm getting ready to move, which is super exciting, but yet again, wierd at the same time. So much is going on and I love it!!
But I have a request for you all. Please don't talk about me. And I know that you know who you are. Why do you even care? If we aren't friends anymore then why do you care what I do? And don't judge me on my decisions. You don't know why I am making the choices I am. You don't know what I am doing now with my life. Sure you may know things that I have done that aren't great. But they are things in the past that I don't do anymore. But don't think you are better then me because you haven't done those things. You aren't perfect either. So why do you think that you are better? Don't even call me a dirty slut or any of those things. You have no clue why I've done the things I've done. And frankly I think that you don't want to know. If you did you would confront me about it and I would lay it flat out for you. Besides you told me yourself you never wanted to know. So why is it so important to you now? So you can rub it in my face. I hate some of the things I've done and I hate myself enough for those things. I don't need you to be hating me for those things too. That isn't what I need. If you don't want to be friends, or even friendly with me, then fine. That is ok. But then don't involve yourself in my business or think that you know why I do what I do. I just don't understand why you care if you don't want to be friends. Why burden yourself with my problems?

I have been having the wierdest dreams lately. The night before New Year's Eve I had a dream that I was babysitting Max at general conference. I was letting him run around by the door to the outside. I looked away for like 2 seconds and when I looked back he had made it out the door when someone opened it. So I ran out after him. We were on like the 5th level or something and Max was standing by the edge of the walkway. As I went to grab him he just stepped off the edge. I could hear him hit the pavement below. It was the sickest sound. So basically the rest of the dream I was hysterical. I woke up feeling so sick and upset. It was a freaky dream.

Then to make matters worse, later that night me, Chad, and Todd were on our way to Kandyce's wedding we saw this horrible accident. We actually saw the car loose control and a body fly into the road and hit the pavement. It took us all a second to realize what it was lying in the road. It was the grossest thing I have ever seen. I almost threw up. I have been thinking about that poor kid ever since that night almost non-stop. I have no idea if he lived or not. If he did it would have been a miracle. So that was how my New Year's Eve started out. Not too great.

Kandyce's wedding was a blast! I got to see Kelly and Ben, and Elisa, and Karlie. It was fun! Kandyce looked beautiful like always! She looked so happy! I am so excited for her and James. James looked pretty dang good himself! It was a great reception!

After the reception I headed home to change and got ready to party! But to end off my year one more thing had to happen! I got pulled over on my way home. Yes indeed I did. BUT I didn't get a ticket! Thank goodness. The officer was actually a pretty cool guy. So I changed and headed to Todd's place. When I got there we headed back up to Salt Lake to go to Dave's party. That was a blast!! I have never had so much fun at a party!! One of the guys that came brought this really awesome game. It was sorta like Dance Dance Revolution, at least the same idea. But it was with guitars. So you would have to play the chords as they came up on the screen. It was a battle between two people and it was pretty interesting to watch!! lol a pain in the butt to play! Me and Todd headed back down to Utah county about 1-ish. We were just gonna stay the night at Dave's because apparently traffic was horrible as well as the weather. I was driving Todd's car cause he had drunk that night and we weren't gonna risk it. But everything was really smooth and we got home without any problems. So that was my New Year's Eve. Pretty much the best one I've had so far!! Hope everyone else had a good time!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!! I hope everyone had a great night and I hope everyone's year is what they want it to be!! I have a lot to blog about but I am way too tired to right now! So here are my resolutions for the year.
1) Cook!! Especially since I'm moving out!
2) Get out of debt or at least get a regular payment going
3) Get in shape!! (yes I say this every year but this year is the one!)
4) Be HAPPY!!! :)

I hope everyone is doing great! Love you all!