Be not afraid of going slowly; be afraid only of standing still. -Chineese Proverb

Well I have had an interesting weekend so far! Last night was kinda wierd but it was fun! I was supposed to hang out with a friend from Vegas but his plans ended up changing so that didn't happen... so I went out to dinner with Sheila, AJ, Cole M, Annie and her husband. We went to Friday's and ended up seeing Rick there which was fun.
After Friday's I split off from those guys and headed to SLC to see a friend at the U and I ended up going to Cole and Chad's place after. We sat around and talked for awhile and then watched the Village. It was a lot of fun and really relaxing... pretty much exactly what I needed.

I have a new stage managing job in AF. I am pretty excited. It is going to give me the extra cash I need (not really extra since I'm giving it all to my parents haha). Chad is doing Plaid Tidings. So that will be a lot of fun.

I've decided that I am going to move to Salt Lake this summer/fall. I am going to work full time and then maybe go to school if I have the money. If I don't then I will just work and save and go to school the next semester. I think that it will give me a change I need. I really love Salt Lake and it will give me kind of a fresh start too which will be good. But hey who know's if it will happen. I might change my mind. This summer I kinda want to go live with my aunt and uncle in Vermont and work for my uncle full time. Just for a change of pace. Something fun. I don't know if that will happen either though. I'm just trying to think of a bunch of different things I can do. Anywho that is about it for now.

Christopher Money?

Chris where'd ya go? It's like you fell of of the face of the earth!! You don't blog anymore so I thought maybe if I wrote a blog looking for ya, you might show up!!
Anyways...
Tonight was an interesting night. Nothing really special happened. I hung out with Fred for a little bit. At work I got to just decorate for our Halloween party which was nice. There really isn't anything to report.
So Chris I better be hearing from you!! If I don't I'm going to have to come and find you!! haha

Haha I'm behind in school again. Not like that took too long. Man the drama of life!! And how that can totally screw you up with everything. But my teachers are being cool and cooperating with me, which is totally awesome!
I'm really excited for Friday! I can't wait to hang out with Hilary and see Thriller!! It is going to be so much fun!
There is a Halloween dance at UVSC on Saturday that I am thinking about going too. I made a new friend at school... this girl in my business class. Like we have talked and we sit by eachother but then lately she HAS to tell me stuff. Like she went on this lame date with a guy in our class and he was really a jerk on it. So he was like I'm going to hear about this on Monday huh? And she was like No but Ellie will. Hahah I thought that was so awesome that she thinks about me with stuff like that. Anywho... she is my partner in our project too which is fun cause when we get together to work it is fun!!
I guess that is really it for now. Half the stuff that is going on right now I can't blog. So sorry if this is boring!

"If you're going through hell, keep going" -Winston Churchill

I went to the gym for the first time in several months tonight!! It felt SOOO good!! And now I have a schedule to go 4 times a week!!! Wahoo!! I am really excited!! And I will most likely see a ton of people I know there so I am pretty pumped!!

I am finally getting caught up in school... mostly in math... I am still behind in English since I switched my paper's topic so I am playing catch up. But soon everything will be good!! Yay!

Well I am really excited that winter is coming. I love that feeling. I can't wait to go walk around Salt Lake in the snow. It is so cool cause my work is having this big Christmas party and the Grand America hotel in Salt Lake. It is like a fancy one and everything... like nice dress and you have to RSVP and you can bring a guest and everything. I'm really excited for it!!

"Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage." -William Ellery Channing

Well yesterday was a fun day!
I went to lunch with Fred at Ernies. I miss him so much! We are going to start hanging out more. I am pretty pumped. Last night me and AJ went to SLC. It was fun... things didn't exactly work out like they were supposed to but it was fun anyways. It was different! Whenever I go to SL I feel so adult. That may sound stupid but it reminds me of New York City in a small way. And it makes me think of Christmas and being independant.

I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life and I have a plan finally.
I am going to study communications at UVSC. I'm going to get my BA and then move to Salt Lake and work for one of the TV stations. Hopefully as a floor manager or something of that sort. So hopefully I'll be able to get an internship there for either next fall or spring.

This summer I would like to work in Salt Lake full time... but I won't be able to afford to live up there. So unless I can stay somewhere for free, that most likely won't happen. So now I am going to push to finish school as fast as possible and then work full time. So then since I am not going to move to Salt Lake for awhile, my next goal is to move out by this summer. Down to Orem somewhere. I guess I'll live in the student apartments. So those are my goals. And then hopefully I'll be able to save up enough money to get a car so I can save money on gas cause the truck is killing me!

The Best Two Years...

Well it was a good two years. It's sad that it is over now, sad that it had to end like this. But at least it was good while it lasted.
There were a lot of fights, but a lot of laughs. There were a lot of movies... A LOT of food. A ton of money spent. A lot of gas wasted. A lot of boys stalked. A lot of boys fought over.
There was a lot of butt slapping and wrestling. A lot of late nights and sleepovers. A few early mornings. A lot of singing, plenty of dancing.
There were a lot of hugs and a lot of understanding. It is sad that it is over but it was great!

"That light at the end of the tunnel? Sometimes it's a train." -Sir Charles Barkley

It is so funny how dumb some people are. They treat you like crap so you aren't friends anymore, then they see how much fun you are having with your other friends, so they want to hang out with your other friends without you. They basically ask your other friends to ditch you to hang out with them. LAME!! It makes me laugh though!!

So far this weekend has been pretty good! Thursday I saw Bunnicula... I got to see Fred and Kristy! It was fun to talk to them again. That night me and Summer went to a movie, Elizabethtown. It was really good. We had a blast like we always do. I can never not laugh when I'm with Summer.

Friday I had lunch with Kevin and Todd at Noodles and Co. That was SO much fun!! Those guys crack me up! After lunch with them I went to work. After work I kind of chilled at home for awhile, ate dinner, did some other crap. Then I picked up Katie and we went to a movie with Amanda, Shalise, Sariah, Katelyn, and Jessica. We saw In Her Shoes. It was actually a really good movie! It went better then I thought. Haha but we didnt all get to sit by eachother. But it was good to see them all anyways. When we left the movie there was a big mexican fiesta going on downstairs at the mall (we were in provo). It was pretty entertaining.

So that was my weekend so far. Today I am catching up on homework, then I'm going out with Mr Fred Lee. Then shopping with my mom and then to SLC. So today is going to be busy!

"A lie gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on." -Winston Churchill

Man today I have finally had some actually down time. I have been accomplishing things this week (like homework) finally. I am really glad that it is fall break! I can finish up a lot of stuff this weekend and hopefully be all caught up with everything. I have finally made a schedule for myself, which means I am actually going to the gym now!! YAY! It feels SO good!!
This has also been a very stressful week. But it's not even my stress. I am in the middle of someone's relationship (not by choice, if I could choose I would be nowhere near it!!) And it is very stressful. Today I was in the most awkward situation of my life and I hope I am never in a situation that is that awkward again. I mean, I can handle awkward (I mean heck I'm the most awkward person you'll meet) but this awkward was just crazy!! Ugh... But it is cool I guess. I'm helping people out and that is important to me! At least I have a break!
I was going through my roll of Aida pics... and shockingly enough, I look good in every picture (ok all but like 2, and that is out of 48 pics). I think I am suddenly photogenic. It is crazy! But I love it!!

"Life is what you make it. Always has been, always will be." -Grandma Moses

Today was a really awesome day and last night was so much fun. This weekend has been one of the best of my life because I have done a different thing, and hung out with different people everynight. Friday was dinner and a movie with Todd and Kevin, Saturday was a party in Springville with Cindy, and Sunday was painting a house, running, and dinner with Cole and Chad. Fun stuff!!

So last night after the cast party (which was alright. Fun to see Kandyce and Cindy) Cindy invited me and AJ to go to a party with her. It was up Hobble Creek Canyon. It was actually a lot of fun and I ran into my friend Brenda there, which was great!

Today me and AJ went up to SLC to help Cole paint his apartment. Chad came up a little after we got there. So we painted most of the day. It was such a blast!! We just painted and ate pizza all afternoon. Then we all went for a run (Chad is trying to get in shape since he made the Full Monty). When we got back everyone showered and then we headed to dinner and a movie. We ended up only eating dinner cause it was 10 by the time we were done and everyone had work/school/job interviews tomorrow so we called it a night and went home. Cole's apartment is so awesome!! I love it! It feels so much like New York to me! And they live in the Avenues... which reminds me so much of New England it is sick. It was such a nice day and it is fall so it was so great to go running and have the whole atmosphere deal of fall around me. I love fall so much. Well being up in SLC really made me want to move up there. Maybe I will. Maybe during the summer I will go work up there full time and find someone looking for a roommate. It would be such a blast!!

Well that was my day. Hope everyone had a good weekend!

Ellie needs...

Here's my top ten at google.
1. Ellie needs a place to stay
2. Ellie needs a home
3. Ellie needs a husband
4. Ellie needs the water
5. Ellie needs your help
6. Ellie needs to stay confined to a crate
7. Ellie needs to plan earlier
8. Ellie needs a place to stay (yeah there are like 30 of these... so apparently I need to move out... I need a place to stay!)
9. Ellie needs a caretaker
10. Ellie needs to find the answers

Haha funny how all of that is mostly true... even the crate one I'm sure!!

Man these last few days have been interesting. Thursday night I slept at Sheila's house with AJ. Sheila is having a really hard time right now and she couldn't be left alone so me and AJ were over there for her. It was fun... haha I guess... if things like that can be called "fun".

Last night I had a blast!! Todd called me up and asked me if I wanted to go over to his place and hang out. So I headed over there and we watched Ellen for awhile, then AJ called. So me and Todd went and picked up AJ. Then Sheila called so we met up with her and headed over to the Spagettii Factory. It was so much fun!! After dinner me and Todd headed back to his place and AJ and Sheila went and picked up her boys and took them home. Me and Todd were at his place waiting for them to get back over there and we just sat there and asked eachother questions from the 90's trivia pursuit. When AJ and Sheila got back we all went downstairs (Kevin was home at this point) and we watched Waiting For Guffman. Hahaha that is seriously one of the funniest movies I have EVER seen!! And it was so much fun to be hanging out with Todd and Kevin!! Man I miss those guys! Well Sheila went home early and so the rest of us just hung out and watched some Janet Jackson videos and some SNL's. We finally left around 2:15-2:30 ish. It was so much fun and different.

I am so pumped for tonight!! The cast party is going to be a blast!! And after the party tonight me and AJ are going to chill with Kevin and Todd again and hopefully go find a party or something! But it will be really fun to see everyone again.

I am really excited for tomorrow too!! YAY!! Oh everyone needs to update. The only people that ever do are Sue and Chris.

"Beauty as we feel it is something indescribable; what it is or what it means can never be said." -George Santayana

Last night was a wierd night. Jay Helquist called me. Like he actually called to just sit and talk and see what was up. It was really wierd. And then he invited me to his soccer game on Wednesday. It was strange.
Today I failed another math test. Ugh I can't wait for this semester to be over. I really need to pass math though so I don't have to take it again. So I just have to buckle down and do it. Crap... I guess that is really all that is going on.
I don't know how much longer I'm going to be blogging. I don't think anyone reads my blog anymore anyways. Everyone who used to aren't my friends anymore apparently so I don't know what the point is anymore.

"Problems cannot be solved at the same level of awareness that created them." -Albert Einstein

Isn't it interesting how fast things change in life? One second you are holding on to something or someone for dear life. The next second they are gone. One second you are so afraid of losing something, but then when it is gone you don't really care. It isn't missed. And then you wonder why it isn't missed? Does that mean it was just never important in the first place? Or is it something that you just grew out of? Something that was monumental to one part of your life and then isn't needed anymore. And then you wonder if it was wasted energy, all the time you put into it. If it was wasted because you didn't try hard enough or if you tried so hard but nothing was given back to you.
It seems so wierd that something you loved so much is just gone. Like that. It takes two seconds. Is it gone so fast that you wonder if it was fading long before that. If you knew that it was hopeless so you gave up early in the game and then when it was actually gone it was really no suprise...

"I got nothin" -Cole

Man this weekend was CRAZY!!! I had such a blast down in Cedar City! Sorry Sue for not swingin down your way but it just wasn't going to happen with my lack of gas/money! I worked my way down to Cedar on Friday at about 2. It was a pretty short drvie and I got to save Debbie and those guys. hahah The joys of breaking down. But at least it was on the exit! Well me, Sarah, Talas (vomit), AJ, and Sheila shared a room. Me, AJ, and Sheila went out to dinner as soon as we got down there. We went to Winger's. Haha Our waiter looked like Algot and had the funniest smile EVER!!! And we saw some interesting people down there. Like mini-Spears, and the Shorts Family Robinson. haha We headed back to the hotel and got ready (for what, I don't know but we were ready to party!!) Sheila did my hair and makeup and I have to say I looked bitchin. haha So we were all ready but we had no where to go. Well we talked to Cole earlier that night and we were gonna hook up with him when he was done with whatever show they went and saw. So we met up with them at Applebees and then headed to Brady's house from there. That was the funnest, most interesting night of my life! Brady with his holey pants, nasty apartment, and wide collection of movies. So we ended up watching Saved and talking. Ah it was a blast!! ("Your too big to fit in here") Lol Well we headed back to our place around 2 or 3 ish. Talas and Sarah were there (dang they were just nasty together) and Cole came back with us. So Sheila, AJ, Talas, and Sarah got the beds. Me and Cole got crammed on the floor. haha which was totally fine!! I was freezing but hey body heat works miracles ;)

Anywho... Saturday we had some drama... We almost had to check out early but I ended up paying for the room myself for that night. So then we got ready and went out to lunch. We saw Justin (Tinman) at Hogi Yogi and talked to him for awhile. That was a blast. Then we headed over the the Shakespeare stuff and just hung out and talked to people that we knew. That night we went to the awards thing and saw Meridian kick butt!! That was fun! And then AJ confronted Miss "Wants to Bask In His Warmth" which was entertaining to watch. We went out to Applebees for dinner (I swear they had like 2 restartaunts down there, Wingers and Applebees) and had such a good time. I love being with those guys. Then we went back to the hotel and hung out. I actually got to sleep in the bed!! haha Cause Sarah and Talas had to leave early with Debbie since she was their ride.

Today we got up, hung out FOREVER, and then finally started getting ready like 10 minutes before we were supposed to check out. We headed to Wendy's for lunch, spent every last penny on gas and worked our way home. We made a pit stop and now we have a "souviner" from this trip, thanks to AJ!! hahaha So that was pretty much it. It was like the perfect vacation ever! I don't think I would have changed a thing. Although I do sort of wish we could have made it over to Vegas. Oh well, next trip!!

"A kiss: To a young girl, faith; to a married woman, hope; to an old maid, charity." -V.P. Skipper

Well lets see...
I am still in denial about the show being over. I really hate that it is. I miss everyone so much!! But it is good cause now I have the option to get caught up on my school work.
So UVSC called me today. Apparently I am supposed to go take some sort of test because I am a Theater major... which makes me laugh cause I'm not a theater major. haha Oh well. Whatever.
I am excited for this weeked cause I am going down to Cedar City to PARTY!!! and I think we might end up in Vegas too. It will be so much fun! Cole is going down and so we are going to party with him! Agh I love Cole so much!! He is the best gay friend EVER!!!
I guess that is really it from my side of the bubble. Oh Mike Leavitt is getting married! That is so wierd to me... awesome... but wierd. LIke if I had actually dated him this whole time, I could be engaged right now. AAAGGGHHH wierd!!

"Don't stay in bed....unless you can make money in bed." - George Burns

Well the show is over. I am pretty sad about it! Now I have no where to go at night. Dang it! I already miss everyone so much and it has been less then 24 hours and I wouldn't see everyone today anyways. It's crazy!!!
Last night we had a great show and it was a good closing night. Which was nice. It would of sucked if we had mic problems or something. After the show was fun! We had a great drag show and then we went to Ihop. Then me and Danielle, Jaymz and his bro, and AJ, Sheila, Cole, and some other people went went ghost hunting. It was kinda fun, not really scary. Then it ended up just being me and Danielle, Jaymz and his bro. I like his brother a lot. He is so much fun. Actually Jaymz's whole family is really awesome. I really like his dad a ton! He is such a cool guy!! So I really want to hang out with him again definitely!
I guess that is really it. Now I can catch up at school!

"I hate it in friends when they come too late to help." -Euripides

Well things are kinda interesting right now. School is going alright. I'm glad that I'm about halfway through the semester. That is wierd to think that it has gone by so fast. I am supposed to do my scene tomorrow in Theater. I am kinda nervous but I don't really care on the other hand. I really wish that I could have dropped that class and picked up a block class. So next semester I think I will take one more class then I need so if I have a retareded class, I can drop it and not have to worry about picking up another one.
Tomorrow Aida is over. I am pretty bumbed about it. I really love this show so much! I mean I love all my shows but this is one of my favorites!! The cast is so amazing and so fun! I love Todd and Kevin and Cindy! Oh man it will be so sad when it is over! But hopefully I'll be able to keep in touch with everyone. I'm plannin on going to SLC and partying with Cole. And Todd and Kevin and I are gonna hang out. Haha Todd invited me to the Red Door (a martini bar) and I totally want to go, but the whole being underage thing kinda throws a kink in that plan. Crap...
Anyways...
Last night was a ton of fun!! Me and Jaymz and AJ went ghost hunting. It was pretty awesome and we all had the crap scared out of us!! Then we went and talked to Margarita at like 3 in the morning. She is so freakin awesome and funny! We decided we are going to go visit her a lot more. I feel so bad that kids treat her so crappy! She is so sweet! So I got home around 7 am. Hahah hence probably the need to move out!!
Well I guess that is it! Hope everyone is doing good!

So I had a pretty gay night. Kinda hit me hard too. A bunch of people were supposed to head over to the huge dance at UVSC tonight. WE were just gonna go straight from the show. So I got all ready after the show and then everyone bailed on me. It pretty much sucked. So I went to Hil's for awhile and hung out with them and Preston and then came home. What a lame ass night. It seems like lately nothing fun happens. It's just the same old crap. And if anything different gets planned, it always gets changed and forgotten about. It seems like everything I care about or want to do is never part of the plan anymore. Whatev. I might move into Adam's basement. We'll see. It would be freakin convinient. I don't know. Anywho... I'm going to bed cause there's nothing else to do around here.